Oh Yay..mother nature hates me

To go with a week of sitting mostly in bed due to pain, I get to start this next week with more pain. Mother nature hates me I swear. Even before my back got real bad, my periods were bad. Back pain, bloating, severe cramps and moodiness. It was easier when I was on the pill, but when they took me off the pill it became excruciating. Due to my age my periods have changed. Now, instead of a week, I get at least 2 weeks and it just sucks. Having chronic pain is bad enough, but for 2 weeks out of every month it gets a lot worse. The bloating and cramps cause muscle spasms in my entire pelvis and lower back, which causes increased back and pelvic pain. It really really sucks. It is during the worst 3 or 4 days when I wish I was a man because they don't have to go through this.

Bridgette is sick. She's been running a fever for 5 days now, runny nose, nasty cough but the doctor says it is a virus. I think she needs an antibiotic. Now I am sick. Due to pain from my period I was awake all last night. At about 2 AM I got a sharp pain in my right ear followed by a weird pop and then my ear drained. So I've been deaf in my right ear all day today. My sinuses are all plugged up and I feel exhausted. But part of that could be from the fact that I only got about 4 hours of sleep. I fell asleep around 10AM this morning, and woke around 1 this afternoon but after a bit went back to sleep and woke again at 2:30 or so. Same thing happened Friday and Saturday nights. So I know I haven't gotten a lot of sleep the last few days. I really hate it when my sleep schedule is all screwed up.

I received a wonderful comment from Shauna (from Shauna's Life In Pain ) about the poems I posted. She liked them and said they were accurate about what it is like to live with chronic pain. Thank you Shauna, I really appreciate the feedback! You are welcome for my visit to your blog. I have enjoyed your writings very much and I am sorry to hear that today was such a bad day for you. I hope tomorrow (and the rest of the week) goes much better! I would love to read your poetry or other writing some day.

Here are a couple of pictures to make you smile.

The one on the left is Bridgette. She is 31 months old today and here she is fascinated by her chocolate bunny. She had a good time and was well behaved despite no feeling very well. On the right is my youngest child, my son Kyle who is 13 years old (will be 14 in June). I was trying to get him to smile a natural smile and I finally got one but as a joke he deliberately turned his eyes to the left. That's ok, it is still a good picture of my handsome young man!