I know I have been withdrawn for a while and I have tried not to be, but it is hard when I hurt so much, can't stand up and can't walk around or do anything. When it is like that all I want to do is hide, lick my wounds (so to speak), and try to just get through each day's pain. I have been in bed for 3 months now. The radio frequency procedures for both sides of my lower back have been done, but I'm still having massive pain in both SI joints. An interesting new symptom has shown up and that is very sharp, very strong pain in the right SI joint. Usually I only have that level of pain in the left side (the broken joint) and the right side is a dull pain that only sharpens after a long period of time on my feet. Not anymore! Now, it is the sharp pain on the right that keeps me from standing for more than 3 minutes.
With the lowering of my pain medications by the lovely doctors, the wait for radio frequency, and now the discovery that they probably won't re-do the SI joint radio frequency, all I want to do is curl up and hide forever.
This sucks.
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Love Green!
7 years ago
Missy my sweet friend,
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks to read this. I know how easy it is to succumb to the depression along with the crazy, every day pan that we must deal with.
I had RF procedures on my Thoracic spine. I found that overall, it did not make any difference in my pain levels. It left me with a permanent spot (to the left of where the Ablation was done) that is numb to the touch. It used to be hyper-sensitive to even a light cotton shirt, but now it is just another numb area on my back. And I had to go ahead with the surgery after all the diagnostic shots, the RF, and countless other procedures.
As always, the support we can gain from another who is in the same boat is...well...priceless.
Just like you.
Gentle Hugs-----<3