A death in the family

I just wanted to drop a quick note and let everyone know that I will be away for the next week or so. My DH's aunt passed away and we are going to attend the funeral in Indiana. We will be leaving tomorrow morning and driving there.

We will also be bringing my DD's belongings with us to drop off in Wisconsin (6 hours from my FIL's house) for her. Today is going to be a busy day getting everything all packed. We were planning on going to Indiana to visit family and bring DD's stuff to her next month anyway, this just pushed it up a couple weeks.

If I can manage to get online while we are in Indiana, I will try to post a quick hello, but I can't promise. I will, of course, be bringing my stitching with me and I might even get some done, who knows. LOL

See you next week!

Not surprised and Busy Day!

I thought this was hilarious. I know I have an odd name and it is very rare. I've never been able to find anything with my name already on it. You know like cups, pencils, key chains or stuff like that. Occasionally I can find my nickname, but not my real first name. I came across a link to "How many of me" are there and out of curiosity I clicked the link and put my name in. Apparently there is only 1 person in the USA that has my full name (first and last) and I'll bet that single person is myself. LOL There are supposedly 1545 or so who have my first name, and 47,728 who have my last name. I found it very funny that there is no one else in the USA with my full name. I wasn't surprised either as I am quite used to having an unusual name LOL

HowManyOfMe.com

There are or fewer people with my name in the U.S.A. How many have your name?

I'm still giggling over this. LOL


Well today has been a busy day. Right now my pain is at a 9 and I will be taking a nap after I finish this entry. Lets see I did lots of laundry, washed , dried, folded and put away. This included 3 blankets (2 queen size and 1 twin size), 1 lap blanket, and 6 sheets (5 queen size, 1 twin and 1 crib size). I emptied all the small trash baskets and replaced their bags (wal-mart bags come in handy for these LOL) and Bridgette insisted on helping me carry the larger bag I dumped them all into around to each trash can then out to the trash can outside. I took in all of Bridgette's new pants, shorts, skirts etc as we had to buy size 4T for her height, yet she is so skinny she fits in a 3T. So I took all the bottoms in a little bit. I went over all my son's math work and found that he hadn't done the things he told me he had done, so today has been a math marathon for him to make him do everything he skipped. I did some picking up in the kitchen and my bedroom.


A few days ago I went back on the cross stitch forum that I loved so much. When my depression got really bad after my adopted father's funeral last summer, I withdrew from everything. No boards, email lists, or blog entries. Now that I have been doing so well in keeping up with my email lists, facebook and blogs I decided it was time to add that posting board back in. I really like the people on the board, they are so friendly, supportive and just wonderful. I was a bit nervous as to how they would react to my having been gone for so long, but no one seemed angry. Instead they were all very warm and happy to see me back again! They were very understanding of my depression and how it affected me. I am really glad!


Ok time to go lay down, sitting here hurts too much.

Screw The Pain

Today I decided to say "F*** the pain!" and do some chores anyway. I emptied trash (bathroom, laundry room, kitchen, and bedroom), cleaned the litter boxes (6 cats dontcha know LOL), put away a box of my biological mother's journals, cleared a shelf in the hallway closet and put our extra blankets on them to get them out of the laundry room, picked up the books off the floor on my side of the bed and took a one hour nap. I still feel really tired, which is not surprising since I haven't been sleeping well. I keep waking up every hour or two, then I'm up for anywhere from 15 minutes to an hour before going back to sleep only to wake up an hour or two later. I've been doing this every night for the past couple of weeks. It is really getting annoying and causing me to feel tired all the time. Eventually I will hit a point where I sleep for 8 or more hours from pure exhaustion. I'm just hoping that when that finally happens, it will happen at night. In an attempt to try to make it happen at night (instead of during the day) and thus help straighten out my sleeping schedule, I am refusing to lay down even though I am sleepy. When I finish this entry I'm going to go work on the Christmas Dreams cross stitch. Because it is on 14 count Aida fabric, with large blocks of one color, it is easier to stitch when I am tired, hurting, or both (like tonight).

Right now my pain is at a 7 with sciatica going down my left leg, deep throbbing in the broken joint and a sharp pain at the top of the joint on both sides and my lower back. But my mood is real good, which is nice. I got some stuff done today, including taking my son a doctor appointment. Having that feeling of accomplishment (no matter how minor the tasks were) feels great and I am enjoying it.

Ron and I have been doing something daily that we don't do often. Not the he doesn't want to do it often, but I usually don't because of what I went through when I lived in Arizona. I used to love to cuddle up, laying my head on my partner's shoulder and just cuddle. I used to love to fall asleep that way, though I couldn't stay asleep that way for long because it gets too warm. But I learned to not want to cuddle like that anymore after being repeatedly told that it was smothering, overly needy etc. So I've been working on trying not to smother that desire and to act on it when it shows up. As time has gone on the desire to cuddle like that shows up more often and I no longer worry that Ron will resent it or me which is really nice. So we've been cuddling a lot the last few days and it just feels wonderful! Last night we were cuddling and I fell asleep. Sadly I was on my left side, which is not a good way for me to lay down and is partly why the SI joint hurts so much today. So tonight he will lay on my side of the bed so I can cuddle up while laying on my right side and I am really looking forward to it!

Ron brought home watermelon so we've all been eating it. Bridgette loves to sit on my lap and help me eat my fruit (fwoot as she says it lol). She will eat a piece herself, then spear me one with the fork and feed me. She'll even tell me I'm doing a good job and that it is yummy for my tummy, basically repeating what we say to her. It is so very cute and so very sweet!

Well that's it for my day, so I'm going to go stitch for a bit. See you all later!